Nak Gi Cuti...

Hmmm... lama dah tak mencoretkan apa-apa atas layar putih ni... bukan tak de masa.. tapi kadang rasa macam tak tahu nak tulis apa... bila dah banyak sangat dalam kepala.. kadang idea tuh tak hadir.. mungkin sebab penat and banyak sangat keje and assignment.. tu yang sampai jadi blank tu... bila dah jem kepala ni... kadang terpikir.. bestnya dapat pegi bercuti... di tepi laut... atau mandi laut ke... lama dah perkara tuh aku tak buat... tambah start mengandungkan Camilia.. hingga la sekarang.. nak bawa Camilia pun sekarang ni... dia masih tak tahu apa2... masih belum boleh menikmati keindahan tuh.. tunggu la dia dapat kaki nanti...

Bila citer bab Camilia ni... ari-ari tengok dia membesar depan mata... macam-macam yang diangankan.. rasa tak sabar nak tunggu dia buat itu ini... sekarang ni... tak sabar nak tunggu dia dapat kaki and boleh cakap.. sebab banyak benda yang nak diperkenalkan pada dia... nak bawa dia jalan-jalan.. nak tunjuk itu.. and nak tunjuk ini... dan yang ditunggu-tunggu ialah tak sabar nak cerita pada Camilia pasal nenda dia yang dah pergi dulu meninggalkan dia... nak citer pada dia.. yang nenda dia amat berharap dapat menemui dia sebelum terpejam mata... tapi Allah penentu segala.. mungkin bukan atas dunia.. tapi di akhirat sana.. dapat la kiranya bertemu... amin..

Sedar tak sedar... dah nak abis semester ni... rasa macam baru je register.. tapi assignment masih ada yang belum hantar.. tadi dah set dah tarikh nak final exam... rasa kecut lak perut ni.. boleh ke nak menghadapi final ni... tak sabar nak habiskan MBA ni... dah penat sangat dah rasanya. Kadang rasa nak berhenti pun ada... tapi bila mengenangkan dah banyak duit abis.. penat lelah selama ni.. at least.. dapat la jugak sijilnya.. lagi pun kan dah janji nak mengubah nasib.. kena la berusaha dan bersabar.. cuma satu sem je lagi harapnya... abis la sem depan...

kadang jeles tengok kengkawan yang dah abis... tapi hari itu akan sampai juga akhirnya nanti... sabar... itu yang paling penting... moga kesabaran dan pengorbanan ini ada ikmah besar yang menanti di akhir nanti... amin... Ya Allah bantu la hamba mu ini..

Foreign baby.. Camilia

This is my Camilia... one of my friend said that... " waaa your daughter look like foreign baby..." is it true... mmmmm... may be... cause she has mix blood but not foreign.. totally Malaysian.. Now she's 6 month already.. and much naughty hehheheheh... but.. what is special about her.... she always smile... and look shame when we call her name... the favorite thing.. she likes to take a bath...

When we look at this picture... we not think that my Camilia is a girl.. right? Bcoz.. of her hair.. i always put the baby oil.. and hope that it can be more longer soon... it must be more cute... heheheheh..

I agree with what my friend told me ... "when you have a baby... you will always miss your baby a lot... and want to go back early from work.. want to see her smile... her laugh.. everythings about your baby..." yaaa that is right... all this happen to me now... sometime i feel... i dont want to go work... want to stay with her everytime... but.. no matter what...i've to go... it's all for her...

to see her growth... is my desire.. i want it happen infront of me...

Now my Camilia.. she got a new cousin... Adib Hakimi... my sister son.. just 18 days come to the world.. So now her grandfather have a couple of grandchild... My mom will feel happy when she got two grandchild now... but she went first... Camilia and Adib born after she past away...

I'll makesure that Camilia and Adib will know better who is their grandmother... Their grandmother love them so much but.. can't give the love in reality... Al-fatihah to their grandmother ..................................................... amin.....